i really really like you and i was wondering if we could maybe go on a date…i mean i know about your sexuality, and in the past few weeks, i’ve come to the conclusion that i’m gray-a, and i just i wouldn’t overstep any boundaries because i think you’re so sweet and lovely and i just
i’m sorry i probably sound so dumb, i’m sorry for bothering you.
ugh ugh ugh
i don’t even know right now
everyone is so much better at everything than i am literally like
i’m so absolutely useless and stupid and dumb and fat and ugly and i have ugly bad hair and i’m stupid stupid stupid
and lazy as fuck
and sad all the time
and nobody ever likes me
and if they do
they live 500000000000000000000 miles away
like i just wish
i had the courage
to talk to people and tell them i thought they were cute and hey we should date or something
like i just
i actually cant stand to be alive anymore
like i literally cant
i hate everyone and just i hate myself the most
and nothing will ever change
because i am thinking that nothing ever will so it wont
and i cant change my way of thinking because its all i have ever known
and i never accept compliments
an d just
i wish i could die yep
on my 21st man
only a bit longer
only a bit longer
oky so honestly i have so much rage in the past half hour - hour
my dad and i were supposed to go to tim hortons for one after i came back from school but he said he was going out so i said okay i’ll just stay at the school with my friends for a bit
so i did
and then my mom calls at 4:20 and is like yelling at me
"where the fuck are you you’re supposed to be home an hour ago what the fuck what the fuck!!!"
and i was like seriously man i dont even care i can have friends
and she kept yelling about how she’s going to see a movie with my dad and i was like what the fuck… no wrONG i was supposed to go to timmies with daddy after school but he said he was going out so i stayed a while at school instead of waiting for his ass to come home
and so i walked home etc and my parents drive by and yeah whatever
then when they finally get back home i was like
SO HOW DID YOU LIKE THE MOVIE?!?!?! (cabin in the woods, i gave it like 4.8 out of five holy shit i loved it so much)
and my mum was like: that movie sucked holy fuck 2 out of 5 stars
and i was like what the heck dont even talk to me hahaha!!!
as a joke
and then my dad comes in the house and my mum is like so how did u like the movie
and my dad says
"FUCK it was SUCH a bad movie oh my GOD 2 out of 5, how can chris hemsworth even think that that is a good movie to act in?! it was so HORRIBLE he must be DESPERATE for money!!!"
and i was like what the…. dude… i thought it was a good movie??
and he kept going on and on about how shitty it was
and so THEN i mentioned how it was actually sorta be a comedy horror, right?
and he was like” meh it was sort of a tongue in cheek movie”
and i asked what that menat
AND HOLY F C U C K KCVBJH
HE FLIPPED HIS SHIT EVERYWHERE!!!!!!!!!!!!
HE WAS LIKE
"WHAT THE FUCK TASH HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW THAT PHRASE HA HA ARE YOU FUCKING SHITTING ME W O W YOU ARE SO FUCKING STUPID YOU CALL YOURSELF FUCKING CANADIAN??? HA HA HA HA WOW AND YOU WANT TO BE A FUCKING /AUTHOR/ AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS??? DO YOU EVEN FUCKING READ??!?!?!?!?!"
an i was like what the fuck…………………… i just didn’t know what it meant…??? i’m sorry???
like i don’t even know what the fuck his problem is why would he get so legitimately ANGRY over such a tiny tiny little thing?! so what if i dont know what a phrase means…???
i bet ou he doesnt know half the stupid internet phrases that are used a lot in today’s kid’s generation etc like really come on
it just pissed me off so much that he would scream at me for THAT
and make me feel like shit etc
and then i dont know i went to get a second bowl of popcorn and my mom
HA HA WOW YOU’RE EATING A SECOND BOWL HOW MUCH DO YOU FUCKING NEED TASH???
and i was like: … wh…
and my dad pipes in: YEAH HAHA YOU DON’T GET ENOUGH, HUH?
and i was like: really? fucking REALLY? you are going to fucking mock and make fun of me for eating two bowls of popcorn? dudes you just came back from the mo v i e theatre you ate the whole bag of popcorn so shut the fuck up
GOD NOW I WANT TO CRY
WOW MY PARENTS ARE ACTUALLY FUCKIN G PIECES OF SHIT
i actually cant even stand them how can you even say that to your daughter??!?!!
and my mom especially because she KNOWS i had an eating disorder i just don’t understand how she can think that that is okay………
like i just
i cant deal with anything anymore with my fucking family
i hate every one of them
and also my brothers were supposed to be in bed at like 8:30 and now it’s 9:40 and they are still awake so i was like
"hey go to bed man!!!"
and my dad fucking screamed at me “DONT TELL THEM WHAT TO DO TASH HOLY FU C K” and he didnt say anything
and like god
just i dont
the injustice in this house is so
i want to just kill myself so i dont have to be associated with these fucking ass wipes anymore
i hate my family and i hate my name and i hate myself and i wish i was someone else who people actually liked because i will never get a boyfriend and i will never fall in love or nything
and i jusdtyghdgf
i really just
i wish that i could just
i dont want to go down now and get my ativan because my parents will know i am crying and if i tell them its because you implied that i was eating bad because i got a second bowl of popcorn and because i didnt know what a fucking P H R A S E meant
they will actually laugh at me and mock me more
horrible they are
i never want to wake up
i hate to be alive
i really want to kiss someone right now holy fuck
like i just want to have a crazy make out session with lots of tongues and biting and chin and jaw kissing aND NECK KISSING
and collarbone kissing
holy h e l l
why am i single
i have been single for too long okay
TOO L oN G
wow i really wish it was friday today i hate school i hate my life i hate teachers and students and learning
i really dont want to
anymore because existing is so dumb and i feel like i dont exist in the first place but only mentally etc and
i still exist physically but i am on another plane of exitence
that is why my life is so bad and fucked up
w o w holy shit i am hating everyone right now and i just want to die and i am suicidal and
fictional roleplay blogs A+
it isn’t real it’s fake nothing matters why am i so dumb and stupid jesus christ
i just actually
i want to die wow
and i mean like it isnt
it isnt real
i am so empty and sad but i cant even fucking cry what is wrong with me oh my fucking god
what is wrong with me seriously i cant even
i cant take anything anymore
i dont want to exist